Things I had figured out

I had figured out several random things in these days.

1. I could cook.
I was afraid of not being able to cook in first day of my appartment life. Guess what? When I faced to kitchen, I somehow knew what to do. It was good that I didn't embrass myself in front of my friend who had dinner with me.

2. I was thought as "game freak."
When I was told it by my friend who barely know me, I was surprized little bit but lately, I was convinced. I'm online most of the time. Also, sure, my outlook kinda makes people think I play video game often. So these points probably made her seems like I am nerdy. Wrong. The truth is that I don't even have video game with me. I left them in my dad's and had occasionally played Nintendo64 Smash Brothers that my roomie owned.(I was actually good at it) I am online all the time...well, at least my PC is. I had bad tendency that I never turn it off. Also, I'm often stuck with it because of my daily task...

3. I was thought as "narcissist."
Ok, this bitch told me I am narcissist that everyone and I admit after she begged me and let me spend an hour to help her when I was actually busy. All right...I have written a lot of things about myself to my accounts. I have also posted some pictures of myself in public. I admit it. But I know she is really crazy. She can't even proud of herself for being her but insults people with failure...


Probably I should know myself better to look at what I am truly into not to lose myself. Critics aren't what I should really let to take my control.

new

new start
new semester
Probably a lot of people start to walk again with brand new heart.


not me.



I have no confidence. I really don't know if I can be successful. But I can't go back. So I'm forced to step forward. Maybe if I see the shining light again, I will start to run again. I am still dreamng to run like I used to.

So far, I have brand new kicks and brand new socks. Yea, I should get going.

The guy who killed

I was deadly tired. I did not feel good.
But today, I followed my mother's order and went to shopping with her.
Then I saw a guy...




The guy who was the cause for the death of my friend.





I saw him when I got off my car. No responce. Just apathy.
I was not ready for it. It perioded my day to worst in this week.
I tried not to look at him. So I passed by. Another guy called me...It was my friend...not closed but friend. He is always cool and I am trying to him. The guy screwed it up. He made me rude.



I had no where to bring this explosion of my emotion after all. So I stuck them inside and made another pile of sorrow.

Again and again. Even though I'm mad at you for the pathway you had chosen, I'm still on your side. R.I.P. Stephen