Get along again

After missing opportunity three times, I finally made it this time. I went to my friend's party last night. I woke up at 6 am, got out of my house in Ohio, and drove to Michigan. It took me 6 hours. Later, I went to my friend's. I didn't care how tired I was. I was very excited and stayed up until 4:30 am.

I guess things are meant to be equalized. But when it is about suffering, suffering part often takes more than ease in our life. So right after the party started and when I took walk with my friends to dinner, my friend found my ex with her husband on the other side of side walk. I told them I don't care, but I was actually disgusted seeing them.

Lately my friend keeps telling me they are around and reporting me what he saw. I did not have will to compare but they are doing same thing that I did with her according to what he says.



I'm not saying it is bad. But I always look out for better way to get closer and cuddle in relationship. It's like marthon. If you stop, you can rest, but you still got certain distance left to go or you quit developing.

Oh, not just critisizm, it is seriously annoying to see them or hear about them often after I had already moved on. I don't want to intersect with my past mistake anymore. I guess I need to work on development much more.