One thing that you really want to avoid with your friend

Money. Yes, money.

This is one thing(problem) you really want to avoid with your friend. This is the best way to lose trust to your friend and to you. With common sense, you really do know it well, right? But when you are somehow broke that you can't get out, you probably have to be patient.

Let me give you very very easy example.
You have only $3 in your wallet. You want $10 CD. This is reality. What would you do?

a. wait until your next salary
b. put this $3 into your investiment and wait until it expands.
c. barrow money from bank

Possibly,
d. you barrow money from your friend.

If you are with common sense, theft is not an option either "letting your friend to feed you." If this is living purpose, I do understand if you come to me for barrowing. But money is money. You have to give it back to me if we make promise(or could be contract b/c promise can be broken).

I have one of my friends who has been closed friend for me... He recently tells me he's broke. I know he pretty much goes to school by his effort and payment. Problem is that I pretty much owe him $20 for alcohol. I sometime buy him alcohol, and he tells me he wants to share. So I share and drink with him even though I don't want to drink at that moment for socialization. After all, he doesn't pay. He doesn't even want to mention about it. He loves to forget it. I do not want to interpret this by that he tries not to make me owe him by share. I did it for socializtion. Frankly, I'm out of money too. That's why I'm not eating as much as I should...no, as much as I can. That's how I save my money when I'm out of money.

I took him to library yesterday. I want him to understand that I really need to spend much time on studying for my major and my classes. It requires so much memorization and without spending time, I cannot even pass the test. He told me I haven't socialized enough. I did what I can do for him, but I told him that I'll do my best. So I mentioned about having dinner that night. He said ok. I called him dinner time. He was hanging out with friends that he clearly knows I don't hang out with. He asked me to come over. I declined and he told me that I am a bitch.



I owe him money and I am a bitch.



I went down further than the interest rate that he has in bank, I guess. Because I socialized with him, I felt it's necessary for me to go to library. So I did at 2 in the morning and pulled pretty much all-nighter to study for it. I took a test this morning and pretty much failed it.

I am sorry, my brother. Probably you may think I'm not smart enough. But get this. I am not in a class you take that will curve you from 50% to 83% and that you tell me it's so easy and you dont' need to study for. I wish mine will curve like yours. That will make my life so much better.

I have to ask him for money. I know I will get into fight. Now I'm holding a ticket of Will Ferril that I'll go with him tomorrow. I wish I can enjoy this awkwardness with the payment of $27 I made to socialize.